So things have maybe not been so great lately, but I get help from unexpected places. I don't have any sort of entry prepared in my head, but I did not want Thanksgiving to go by without thanking the bloggers I have been regularly reading.
My connection to anything can be overly fragile because my suspicions loom at some of the worst times. Except when exactly is a good time for suspicions to loom? (if anyone knows this answer please overnight mail it to me in exquisite detail & I will gladly pay postage)
Reading your blogs, I do feel a connection, perhaps because I've chosen to read the people I knew before I felt things go so very wrong with my schizophrenia. I care about you. I can't care in the exact same way as I did before because I am so very different now. But you MATTER. That mattering does more for me than for you, since I so need something real & good that matters in my life.
Simply to me you are real & you are good(mostly, hey, not all the damn time).
I wish you peace & love & health & family & great pumpkin pie in the just right amounts to meet your wants, & even more so to meet your needs.
your thanksgiving winging it sounds like a good plan for the other 364 to me, and i want to thank you back as well for all the support over the years.
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You matter to me too. I'll be disappearing for a week of treatments again next week but you will still be mattering in my mind. So glad we reconnected.
ReplyDeleteThank you for the kind words and for reading and commenting!
ReplyDeleteBeth
And I'm so glad to see the old gang checking in! We are grateful for you too!
ReplyDeleteI love how you "winged" this post. Good job! Now excuse me while I check out the rest of your blog.
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Good to have you back. I always trusted you.
ReplyDelete...Mary... I am honored to have you as my friend... I will try to write my New Jersey friend and let her know how much she means to me..!
ReplyDeleteMark, you left a comment previous that your snailmail to me was returned; I wrote you with my new address & MY snailmail was returned because you'd moved....hmmm. Email me please:
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I feel privileged to be your friend, Mary, going back quite a few years. Hope our connection helps you in some way or other. Wishing you strength as always
ReplyDeleteSuch a sweet post. You matter to me as well. And I hate it when I let my mind overrun judgement and suspicions overtake me. It's when I make me biggest mistake.
ReplyDeleteYou matter to me also. I needed to hear this from someone today. It has been a rough time lately and honestly I needed to hear that I mattered to someone.
ReplyDeleteYou matter to me, too. I'm so sorry I haven't been reading your blog. I hope you feel up to writing more soon because it does me a lot of good. (I think a good time for suspicions to loom would be when you're walking alone to your car in a dark parking lot. That's one time when it would be good....)
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